Andrew Durning

Andrew Durning

Flower of Scotland Cover Song

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Total raised so far£0.00

Total plus Gift Aid: £0.00

Target£0.00

Raised offline: £0.00

My story

[p]Anyone who knows me will know two things: I’m a father to twin three-year-old boys and I have mental health issues. Being a father at any time in life is difficult but, in what has been a very tough time for all of us, sometimes it has felt impossible. [/p][p]When we first went into lockdown for those three weeks back in March 2020, I enjoyed it as I got to spend more quality time with my sons. Granted we couldn’t go anywhere or do anything, but it was just nice to be with my family. When we got the call to return to work, I was nervous but, after a week or two back in the office, things were fine. We muddled through and somehow found a “new normal”. Then, on the 21st of June 2020, I lost my Great Auntie Gina to Covid… she caught it in hospital while recovering from a stroke. If there was a precise moment as to when my mental health started deteriorating, it was that day. Before lockdown I was very close with my family. Family gatherings were full of joy, laughter and love and no one embodied this more than my Great Auntie who, before lockdown, was out every day and always busy even at the age of 91. After she died, everything got harder for me. I wasn’t dealing with my grief and time with my sons became a daily struggle. I started second guessing myself over things that were once second nature, and I started to believe my wife and sons didn’t love me anymore. A month later, after taking my sons out to the park, I took a severe mental breakdown. I went to my room and cried for hours. I felt like a failure as a father, a husband and a human being; I thought I was a burden and that there was no benefit to me being alive. The lowest point came when, after admitting I needed help, I was asked to leave the family home for a while to focus on my recovery. Feeling like a failure was one thing but being told you could be a danger to yourself or your family was the worst feeling I have ever experienced in my entire life. I thought there was no way back at that point. [/p][p]After leaving I remember sitting alone in a room and saw two paths in front of me. The short path was to give up, and the long one was to fight. I’m ashamed to admit that I did consider the short path, but I made the choice to do the work and get better; not for myself but for my boys. Fast forward and things have improved dramatically since that fateful day. I came back home in early September, I attend regular counselling, and I’m making a conscious effort to develop a more honest and loving relationship with my wife and sons. Recovery hasn’t been easy; there have been several bumps along the way, and I’ve had to make a lot of changes to keep my anxiety under control. However, I keep working and adapting to try and be the best version of myself that I can be for my family.[/p][p]Sadly, there isn’t a lot of support available for mental health and it’s become even harder during these unprecedented times. Not everyone has the chance to pay for private counselling as I did and resources for mental health support through the NHS were scarce even before the pandemic. I wanted to give back to the mental health community as a thank you for doing so much for me when I struggled and, at the same time, do something to honour my late auntie’s memory, but I didn’t know how. Then I remembered one of my “bucket list” ambitions; recording a modern-day cover of Flower of Scotland. I love being Scottish (not just because I’m ginger) and I’ve had the idea to do a cover of this historic anthem for almost twelve years, but I always made excuses not to; it’s not the right time, I don’t know enough people, I don’t want it to do it for selfish reasons. So, I thought, “why not combine the two and record the cover to raise money for mental health awareness.” After that, the idea picked up a lot of traction and I had so many fellow artists (16 in total between musicians, producers and vocalists) offer their support and talent for the cause that the song will be officially released on Spotify, Amazon Music, iTunes etc. on Saturday the 18th of September 2021.[/p][p]This all sounds great but, relying on downloads alone won’t raise as much money for the cause as I would like to. People also might like the idea of the song but, if you aren’t Scottish, you won’t necessarily want to listen to it; after all, we all have different musical tastes. That’s why I set up this fundraising page; that way if you want to contribute but can’t bear the thought of listening to my song, you don’t need to (although I would appreciate if you did). [/p][p]Contribute what you can, even if it’s just a small amount, and together we will keep building momentum and do something amazing for charity.[/p]
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Event

Personal Challenge Date

18 Sep 2021

Supporters


Sep 5, 2021

Morag Dalrymple

£10.45

plus £2.61 Gift Aid


Sep 1, 2021

Gormley

So proud of you for going through with all this and getting your idea to finally become a reality. Well done to everyone involved.

£30.00

plus £7.50 Gift Aid


Aug 24, 2021

Jim K

Good luck everyone, can’t wait to here the song 😀

£20.00

plus £5.00 Gift Aid


Aug 24, 2021

Sally

£5.00

plus £1.25 Gift Aid


Aug 24, 2021

Anonymous

Well done with the fundraising.

£10.00

plus £2.50 Gift Aid


Aug 24, 2021

Yvonne Wood

Well done Andrew. A great achievement.

£5.00

plus £1.25 Gift Aid


Aug 24, 2021

Andrew

Family donations

£90.00

plus £22.50 Gift Aid


Aug 23, 2021

Karen M

Thanks for sharing your story. Good luck with the single!

£15.00

plus £3.75 Gift Aid


Aug 19, 2021

Anonymous

£15.00

plus £3.75 Gift Aid


Aug 18, 2021

Anonymous

£100.00

plus £25.00 Gift Aid

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