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Nicola Akers

2019 Virgin Money London Marathon

Total raised so far £0.00

Target £0.00

Total plus Gift Aid: £0.00

Raised offline: £0.00

My story

[p]Okay.......here goes! I dont just want to share another **** story, we all have those but I do want to explain why this charity means the absolute world to me and many many other people in the hope you will part with a bit of your hard earned cash to help them out.[/p][p]Sorry for the detail but awareness of this awful experience is half the battle for the trust.[/p][p]Back in 2004 I fell pregnant for the first time and could not have been happier at the prospect of starting my own little family. Everything was going seemingly normally up until 11 weeks when I started bleeding. I went to see the out of hours Dr who told me to go home and wait 48 hours to see if I miscarried, much to my relief 48 hours passed by and I thought I was out of the woods, that evening I experienced what I can only explain as the most excruciating pain in my right side I have ever known and uncontrollable sickness and dizziness, the Dr was called out and just looked at me and got me sent straight to hospital.[/p][p]I got admitted quite late at night for observation, just as my family left for the evening I experienced the same pains combined with a sharp pain in my left shoulder, as soon as I reported this to the nurse she did my blood pressure, which had dropped through the floor and all hell broke loose. I had nurses and Dr's surrounding me prepping me for emergency surgery but not telling me what was happening. I remember them running my trolley through to surgery and every bump I would scream out in agony. I remember feeling the most scared I have ever been in my life.[/p][p]I awoke after 6 hours of surgery to be told I had lost my baby through a ruptured ectopic pregnancy, which I had never heard of, the baby had started growing at the very end of my tube which had then ruptured and caused severe internal bleeding. I had lost numerous pints of blood and then had to undergo a blood transfusion and they had partially removed my left tube however I was lucky to still be alive and with luck on my side I could still conceive.[/p][p]It took years for me to finally conceive again and although delighted, the fear also gripped me. I was sent to the early pregnancy unit for an early scan at 9 weeks. It was the same nurse as the first time and she held my hand as I had the scan. I knew it wasnt good news when I saw her start to well up.[/p][p]The Dr explained that they had found the heartbeat but that once again it was in the remains of my damaged tube and they would have to do keyhole surgery to remove 'it' ('it' being my baby).[/p][p]Once again I was sent to be operated on while trying to deal with the devastation in my head, they explained to my family the surgery would take around 2 hours. My poor family paced the waiting room without being given much information as the hours passed. 9 hours later I came out of surgery.[/p][p]While I was under the tube had burst, however the damage the internal bleeding had caused from the first one meant they could not locate it and my bowl had fused to my stomach lining and once again I suffered huge internal bleeding and the specialist surgeon had to be called in. Even more lucky to be alive![/p][p]Once I had come round and started to process all of this, I was then informed that I had so much internal damage that the likely hood was that I will never conceive and even if I did my body would not be capable of carrying a safe pregnancy.......I would never have a child.[/p][p]I cant explain how this felt, I had 12 weeks of physical recovery ahead of me but this was a breeze compared to what was going on in my head! I put on my smiley face to ensure my amazing family were okay but I was absolutely devastated inside and struggling to cope. I tried to forget / ignore it but ended up suffering terribly with anxiety and panic attacks and then ultimately depression.[/p][p]I contacted the Ectopic trust, which is a very small but perfectly formed charity and it was the best thing I have ever done! I have spoken to and helped many women going through the same thing and getting them to understand they are not alone........of course it hurts more than anything but realising how lucky you are to go through this and still be alive is also humbling, I met a lady whose daughter had died waiting for the ambulance.[/p][p]People think Im crazy for doing ridiculous challenges......Im not, it keeps me focused and looking towards a bright future and If I can help the people that have helped me in my toughest times then its worth every moment.[/p][p]Ectopic pregnancy is the MOST common cause of death among women during the first trimester of pregnancy.[/p][p]Small charities work had to make their funds, unlike some of the more well known. I will be running the London Marathon with this charity and my 2 lost babies in my mind every step of the way, so its sure to be an emotional journey which I truly hope you will follow me on. This will be the last sponsored event I will do as I know people get a bit sick of it.[/p][p]Please please please give anything you can to this amazing charity, I appreciate every penny and so will they.[/p][p]Finally a huge thank you to my amazing family who have always been there for me and I know it will be tough for you to read xxxx[/p][p][br][/p]

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Apr 13, 2019

Vanessa Cowland

Enjoy every second you have done so well to get here!

£26.00 plus £6.50 Gift Aid

Apr 13, 2019

Nicole Odam

Good luck, what a great charity to raise money for.

£10.00 plus £2.50 Gift Aid

Apr 13, 2019

Diane

Good luck Nikki - will be there to cheer you on!

£15.00

Apr 11, 2019

Anonymous

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Apr 10, 2019

Emma Johnson

What a heartbreaking story Nickie. Even more inspired by your passion, your positive outlook and your sheer determination for such a worthy charity. The team is right behind you (metaphorically speaking, no way I could do a marathon!) good luck xxx

£30.00 plus £7.50 Gift Aid

Apr 10, 2019

Anonymous

You are amazing :) Best of Luck xxx

£15.00 plus £3.75 Gift Aid

Apr 9, 2019

Tina

£20.00 plus £5.00 Gift Aid

Apr 8, 2019

Cheryl

You are an inspiration lovely! You never back down from a challenge and I know you’ll smash this one as you always do xxxxx

£20.00 plus £5.00 Gift Aid

Apr 3, 2019

Sharon

Good lucky lovely lady you can do this x

£15.00 plus £3.75 Gift Aid

Apr 2, 2019

Emma Tomes

Choose a mile for me. Lots of love from Emma Tomes and Alex xx

£20.00 plus £5.00 Gift Aid